The first fell through because the model in question caught The Cold, so capitalized due to my all too familiarity with it. I gave whatever meager advice I could, and spent the evening with Roni and penguin_goddess, after a long, pleasant day with Nikki (who was NOT there for a photo shoot).
Last Night's shoot got as far as the model's house. I had just lugged the lights inside when she told me she wasn't up for a shoot. She WANTED to have the pics taken, but she had just had her meds adjusted and she was feeling too vulnerable for the shots to be taken. To her credit she had warned me in advance that MIGHT be the case, but as I explained to her, there's a certain mental state one should be in to take photos (at least that's true for me), and I needed to be there on the off chance it might actually happen.
I was more than a little taken aback at how similar to suddenly finding out that there was to be no sex tonight the feeling was. Ironically, there WAS sex to be had... though I couldn't help an undercurrent of disappointment from creeping into my mind.
The capper was coming home this morning to discover that ambar had, for all intents and purposes, broken up with me. In fact, it looks like she had done it months ago, and I was too stupid to take the hint. I thought I was giving her some requested space while she worked through the insanity of school plus full time employment. Apparently, THAT was the hint. Even after our last meeting I walked away with some hope at reconciliation.
I can be SUCH a tool.
The good news is I've actually managed to get several days in a row of sleep, even during the storms last night. I think if it weren't for that, I would actually be depressed about a lot of this right now. As it stands, life doesn't suck THAT badly (though I'm really worried about dcatt, as her insurance company has decided to play games with her short term disability... so much for Met Life paying), and in fact it's turned out pretty nicely on a lot of levels. Had a lovely surprise hot tub with penguin_goddess yesterday, which (even with intensive processing on her part) was a wonderful chance to soak out some kinks.
No, not THOSE kinks.
Anyway, time for a quick shower, change, and head in the general direction of work.